I was thinking about heaven the other day and I'm just drawn away in my mind wondering about it.  I know that I know a few little details about it, but what can it be like to spend eternity with the maker of the world.  The one who created and formed everything.  Ever get around someone who is really smart and you feel really small?  We are gonna rule and reign with him forever.  We are gonna see Him and be like Him and changed in the twinkling of an eye.  Geez, He totally formed and fashioned me and made me the way I am (it was on purpose).   What was He thinking when He made the ocean and the waves?  What was the emotion in His heart?  What did He think and what did He say when he created all the galaxies.  Why do I think it's all about me. I think that the world revolves around me, yet the world is revolving around the sun.  Wow, I wonder what God's thinking right now???? I think He wants to speak so much more, but I talk all the time and so I am not quiet enough.  I have been chewing on the verse " Be still and know that I am God".  I am not that still!  I was listening to a cd by Todd Bentley and he was talking about how he waits on the Lord and feels God's presence come into the room and how the Lord speaks to him about how He is going to move. Anyway, it's so amazing that God sent His son to earth to come and redeem us back to Himself.  He gave His life for us.  And we are just the clay in the hand of the potter.  We can't make ourselves great only the Father can.  Life is so real.  One life is so important to God, but how many  times do we take forgranted a time to witness, love on someone, or help someone else.  So many around are dying and on their way straight to eternal damnation and the caring, loving, affection of the Father is not in me.  I am ashamed looking back at the last few years of life and just really seeing that my Yes has not been Yes and my No has not stayed No.  I have procrastinated long enough.  God has been forgiving and lenient, but still there is so much more that I am missing out on and I just let it pass by, as if it doesn't matter or have any legitimacy, and I write about my woes & foes and other loves, but what really matters is getting to Jesus.  The love of the Father has to be seen so men can be drawn unto Him.

Help me God bc I know there is no other way.  There is noone as sweet and tender as God.  I need true revelation of the Son of God/the Son of Man.  This king is coming back! Let us render our hearts and not our garments.  The Spirit and the Bride say COME LORD JESUS, COME.  

TO ALL YA'LL PEOPLE IN THE HOUSE !!!!!!!!

Whoever you is I'm sending a hello!  So , I love to write and I love sharing my heart, but what is this season of my life?  Wow, I feel like I have been so busy going here and there and moving a bajillion times in my sister's house and just enjoying God here in KC, MO that I foget about "the real world" I mean the real world.  I think I will be changing jobs very soon.  I have been working in a coffe shop here and it has been great, but it's time to go so I can make more money and have more time to devote to the Lord.  Again, I know that He has me where I am at, but I don't want to miss what He has for me or settle in an area of life or with someone particular if it's not the right person.  I just want to keep a right perspective in life in all areas.  Obviously that is probably unattainable, but I just want to have the fear of the Lord and just really try to keep Him as the top priority.

So much of life has changed since January.  I got to join a worship team here and I am going to be dancing again.  I love it here because it's a community and people help people.  IHOP just had their 7 year anniversary and it was a blast.  There was to be no fasting.  it was great!  Well, Love to all and to all a good night!  May His peace be with you continually and may the light of  His face shine on our hearts and change us forever!

If you get this and you know me and want to visit IHOP let me know!  You should come and check it out if you never have!  :)